rookie
  i never thought this could be me
  i guess you never do until it's happening to you
  like all the fun turns into shame
  and all the "could have beens" rearrange
  so little time so many crimes guilt like a chain chokes my will away
  redemption never seemed so cruel
  and all my gods never seemed so weak
  wake up engage now derailed and enraged it used to be so easy
  get up i'm game now sick and i'm tame counting cost with lost
  where is the hope they gave
  don't think that i can't hear you laugh
  i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me
  drink to pills to shots turns into shock
  a habit and a pawn
  for every hand goes round the pain gets so damned loud
  the hammer hits and i'm down
  trust no one
  hey why should i they gave
  me the poison dressed like life
  cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat
  used to be a pro at this
  now I've broken my own wrist
  rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm gone