I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold,
  I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old,
  I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight,
  I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,
  I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about,
  I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win,
  I can't afford to blow this one,
  I hate myself sometimes,
  I love myself,
  I need this way of life because it holds me.
  contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy
  now I've made it through those lies and deceit,
  I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore i am sure,
  now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe
  I'd lost control of my fate.